Disclaimer: I’m feeling sorry for myself. Don’t be rude or obnoxious in the comments, I’ll block you. None of my self-absorbedness in this post means I’m not anxious or active in other, more important things going on in my family, community and beyond. This post isn’t a tally of what I do for others; I don’t feel like justifying myself to anyone today. This is my blog and today, this is what flows out of my head and into my keyboard. Sorry not sorry.
Some days I feel like I’m living inside a bubble.
I don’t mean to imply the bubble is an isolated, lonely entity of solitude, because there isn’t much of that despite still staying home most of the time. I just mean the lack of external obligations has me more isolated than usual, and for longer than usual. Continue reading “Living in a bubble”
Earlier today I texted a friend that I had a list and I was going to be productive and get things done. After all, it was raining, gloomy and cold; what better time to stay indoors and get some chores tackled?
My friend checked in with me a few hours later assuming, incorrectly, that I had accomplished at least some of the tasks.
He was, of course, wrong.
Continue reading “Fed up”
The Canadian Forces Snowbirds never made it down to my ‘hood. According to the twitter feed that tracks these things, they turned somewhere around the iconic CN Tower downtown, which is east of my little SW corner neighbourhood, and then headed north.
Boo. Continue reading “Lock-down Sunday – part 2”
This is the continuation of Derailment – the abyss (part i).
As I’m climbing out of my pit, I ponder about my purpose in this life.
It’s a question I keep coming back to. (Never mind that some friends regularly beat me over the head with it.)
Continue reading “Derailment – the purpose”
I have begun the arduous climb out of the abyss I fell into this week.
A lot has been going on here, none of which is very interesting, but it did include a self-indulgent pity party in which I wallowed, and slept, almost continuously for several days.
Sorry (not sorry) you weren’t invited.
Continue reading “Derailment – the abyss”
I hung a bath mat over a railing.
I also wrote 60-gazillion words into this blog and deleted them all. Then I turned on the electric blanket and went to bed at 7:30 pm.
It’s now 7:32 pm.
Everything is stupid.
I’ve been saying that a lot lately, haven’t I. Like my earlier post from a few hours ago which was all ranty and full of expletives.
Sorry. (Not really.) 😐
Apologizing is a very Canadian 🇨🇦 activity so sorry for saying sorry when I’m not really sorry. 😄
Continue reading “About my sorry-not-sorry comments lately”
I can feel it coming, the depression. It’s creeping in. Taking hold, slowly, cell by cell.
I try to figure out the source and stop the flow but I don’t know what it is – Genetics? Seasonal changes? Hormones?
Let’s blame hormones. 🙄
Continue reading “Creepy, sneaky depressive moods”
The other day we did something fun about teeth brushing. Click here to see that post.
If you guessed number 1 for my teeth brushing habit, you guessed right. Quite a few of you do it the same way! But some of you do it differently and I’m sorry to say, you’re weird. 🙃
In other news, I wrote and deleted two blog posts for today. Boo. They were too long, too wordy, too inconsequential, too stupid. Continue reading “Here we go again: the job search is back on”
Years ago something apparently insignificant happened to me. Since I’ve been thinking about it on and off for years, perhaps it wasn’t so insignificant after all.
I have some thoughts.
I am, after all, a writer and this is a blog and I like to hurl words about my thoughts out into the internet. 🙂
Continue reading “Emerging from mid-life invisibility”