Quotes from a testimonial and a short update

You know how sometimes life throws you these curveballs?

Me before the curveball ๐Ÿ˜Š

This is a baseball expression and means something unexpected and surprising happens for which you are unprepared.

Well it happened and it derailed me (again). But this time, it’s not a superficial misunderstanding, a miscommunication or some other unimportant-in-the-grand-scheme-of-things issue which left me hanging in mid air, unresolved.

Not this time.

Instead of undesired forced silence and a breakdown in communication as was the case before, the lines of communication in this case have opened wide.

I appreciate open communication, and especially through the written word, as so many of you know.

We received some news a week ago that my brother suffered a seizure. He lives on the west coast, as does my sister. I’m the only kid who remained in the Toronto area where we moved to when we emigrated Switzerland in 1980. All three of us were still kids when we arrived: I was 11, my sister 9 and my brother 7.

But back to the seizure: his teen son called 911 when he saw his dad collapse on a hotel pool deck (they were on a skiing vacation north of Vancouver somewhere) and long story short, he has a brain tumor.

I don’t want to go on about it much in these pages here, I just want to give you a glimpse to explain why some of my platforms I’ve worked on have disappeared just as I was gaining momentum.

It’s interesting that requests for my stories started arriving more after I deleted the site (gumroad). I discovered some problems with the PDFs and was full steam ahead with fixing them when the call came about my brother. Between staying with mom in the suburbs when the calls came and dealing with my kids at their dad’s in the city, I had to drop the PDF thing. I didn’t have time or focus and decided to put it on hold.

I also decided to force myself to go to KDP (eventually when a return to normal-ish resumes). Really, as much as I don’t want to go with Amazon, it’s the best place to publish.

Either that or get an agent.

I’ve come to terms with that now.

I wish I had some help, as the administrative side of publishing and marketing is my least favorite side. Also I suck at it. This doesn’t mean I’m not doing it. It just takes longer to understand stuff and without help I’m at a snail’s pace with moving forward.

Which doesn’t mean I’ve stopped. I haven’t because I can’t stop. The words in my head need to come out. ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

See how many words I’ve already written? ๐Ÿ˜€

I’ve been advised to cull back on the blogging if I want to focus on monetizing words. My silent friend wrote about this in a testimonial about me which is sitting in my draft folder, unpublished.

But then he contradicted himself when he said this:

If she ever stops blogging, you can throw bricks at me.

He almost made me stop blogging, truth be told. If you have some bricks lying around, I’ll point you in his direction.

He also said something else that keeps eating away at me:

Iโ€™ve witnessed her growth blossom in her craft.  Sheโ€™s found her innate voice, the one beyond telling fictional stories. Iโ€™m selfish in saying, Iโ€™d like to see her pursue non-fiction. Frankly and otherwise, I believe this is where she shines brightest. 

I won’t name him because a) he’s disconnected from me, and b) he’s not blogging or writing online that I’m aware of so there is nothing to link to.

But I want to know what you think about the non-fiction thing. I gain more attention via these types of blog posts than I do on any other type of writing.

Should I do something with this non-fiction writing I do here?

Is this ultimately the path I need to follow?

*Edited to add: For what it’s worth I think my friend is right. Perhaps it’s time to give it a shot.

With regards to my brother, he was in surgery for over 3 hours yesterday and woke up hungry and thirsty. ๐Ÿ˜€ Now we await pathology reports. He is 49 and his spirit is amazing. ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

Thank you for reading my post. As always, see you in the comments!


52 thoughts on “Quotes from a testimonial and a short update

  1. Curveballs are amazing, huh? Especially ones that put life in perspective. When an old friend from high school passed nearly 2 years ago, it debilitated me for a month. And I havenโ€™t seen him in years, so I couldnโ€™t understand what was happening with me. Those moments make you step back and review your life in ways you wouldnโ€™t otherwise. Naturally, itโ€™s making you pause and reflect on your writing. Iโ€™ve struggled with bouncing around from one niche to another (always non-fiction) as old ideas fizzle and new ideas emerge. I think all creatives have this โ€œproblem.โ€ But is it a problem? I love that youโ€™re getting into yoga and meditation. For me, itโ€™s helped open me up to allow more ideas to flow through me. Iโ€™ve never made money with my writing (unless you could the few buck for a ebook I published back in 2009), but Iโ€™m in agreement with those who have said to write what you love. From my experience, when I tried to write about something because I knew a lot about it I but wasnโ€™t really excited about it, it didnโ€™t work. But we all learn through the curveballs thrown our way and through the paths they push us down. Youโ€™ll come out of this feeling better eventually. Give it time. Hugs!

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  2. Happy to hear that your brother’s surgery was successful! I also feel that you are capable of becoming an awesome non-fiction writer. I also look forward to reading the weekly digest of your blog posts every weekend!

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  3. God bless about your brother. I am happy he woke up hungry and thirsty. That’s usually a good sign. I hope he keeps doing well and heals well. Good luck with writing โ˜บ๏ธ you got this !

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  4. You write from your heart, be it fiction or non, as you always have since I first started following your blogs. The feelings you turn into stories captivate the reader and leave them yearning for more. You also are not afraid to throw the curtain back and share slices of real life with the readers who choose to follow you on the varied platforms. Be it what it may, critics are writers, and more often than not, they use their own styles to judge others against. As I might have mentioned to you before, if what you write is satisfying to the author/you, then there are pretty good odds the reader will think likewise. Write on, Claudette!

    Good thoughts and positive vibes for your brother’s speedy recovery.

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    1. Thank you J. Your words mean so much to me. I do like the slice of life writing… ๐Ÿ’Œ. I think this is what my friend meant with the non-fiction.

      Send us some happy Texas weather, we’re seriously sick of cold and wet up here. โ˜€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  5. I’m so sorry about your brother. I hope he gets better soon. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. I like how you’re taking it in your stride, though. Marketing sucks. I’m bad at it too. Nobody has bought any of my products after my 1st customer. Amazon is the best place to go. Gumroad is a bit difficult to navigate. I recently added some of my ebooks there.

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    1. One of my customers said he doesn’t like navigating gumroad and also he couldn’t leave a review. People are so used to buying and reading from Amazon into their kindle and then leaving ratings, reviews etc… it’s a little frustrating because I’m not a big fan on how Amazon treats their workers. But, I guess sooner or later most of us writers bend…

      Tomorrow I’ll have a look at your gumroad. Feel free to remind me if I forget. And thank you for reading and commenting.


  6. So glad your brother is out of surgery and his spirit is good. Sending great thoughts that the pathology reports are hopeful.

    There’s no doubt that you are a great writer and are called to write. I’d say that whatever you choose is the right choice because it will have your passion and purpose behind it! And it can change….

    Sending my best!

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  7. Hola.
    I am sorry about your brother. Hope he recovers soon. Sending good vibes!
    I donโ€™t understand why monetizing your writing should interfere with blogging either.
    An agent is always the best, and, in the end, the easiest route, I think. Fiction or non-fiction, whatever makes you happy. You are a very good writer in both categories!

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  8. HI Claudette,
    I am sorry about your brother. Sending prayers and good wishes for him to be 100% in no time.
    As far as writing, you should write what you love. The passion will show through in the writing and the money will follow, or so I believe.
    I have been blogging for 10 years and I have been thinking about devoting more time to it, and maybe generating some income. But I am not as dedicated as you are, so for now it is just for fun and getting the thoughts out of my mind.
    Wishing you the best! Blessings!

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  9. First off, my condolences on your brother. I hope they caught the tumor early enough that he can continue to lead a long, full life.

    Secondly, why would you quit blogging to focus on monetizing your work? You don’t have to sacrifice one thing in order to concentrate on another. I think that’s the passage that bothered me most. Gimme a brick…

    If you are interested in nonfiction, go for it. Just don’t do it because somebody says you should. If it’s truly a passion, by all means, do it! Again, you can also write fiction. Hell, dabble in poetry if you’d like while you’re at it.

    Writers have so many options and don’t need to pigeonhole themselves.

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    1. He meant it as a compliment. I know what he meant. And it was taken as encouragement. Anyway, I am creative and constantly working on leveling up so we’ll see what the next phase of writing will bring me, once I start something and see it through… ๐Ÿ™‚

      Thank you Mark for your insights and perspectives.


  10. Sorry to read of your bother; so disconcerting. I have no advice on the writing, have never been successful at earning money at it. I blog for the discipline and connections. Maybe time to reset your goals?

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    1. I reset my goals like 3x per year. Meh. I’m so discombobulated. I keep having more ideas! So picture it: I’m fed up with writing so I go sit and do some jewelry. I designed 2 new pieces and finished a third one. While I’m doing jewelry I’m thinking up 7 new ideas for writing/blog/business/publishing and interrupt my jewelry to make notes into my evernote app so I won’t forget.

      Maybe I need to take a class in focus. ๐Ÿ™‚ Also, I’m back to doing yoga and meditation, which is probably a good first step.

      Thank you VJ, I appreciate you reading and commenting.

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  11. I honestly gravitate more toward your non-fiction but that’s because that’s what I enjoy reading most in general. But you have to have a passion in whatever you write the last thing you want to do is follow advice and truly end up hating what you’re writing.

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  12. Good thoughts for your brother and entire family Claudette. As to the other, because you asked I can’t help but turn it around and ask you what you want? Does it matter what anyone’s opinion is or what path someone else thinks you should follow? If you don’t have those answers now then perhaps it’s better to explore whatever interests you until it progresses or doesn’t. Make yourself happy with what feels right.

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    1. You must never ever ask me what I want… ๐Ÿ˜› Seriously, as a Libra, it’s so difficult to choose one or the other. Why can’t I do it all? Have it all? See how crazy I am?? ๐Ÿ˜‰

      I’ve always written my best stuff when I just let my words flow. My friend knew/knows this about me, I think that was his way of encouraging me to take this sort of writing, the non-fiction side, to the next level.

      Thank you for reading and commenting, as always Deb.

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  13. I am so happy your brother came through the surgery and woke up hungry and cheerful. This is wonderful. I am relieved for you and your family.
    As regards your writing subject matter, I have always found your writing truthful and factual, even the erotica. I think it is next to impossible to write about something when the knowledge of that subject is nescient. My erotica stories were always based on fact and truth and I think it is the same with your creative writing no matter what the genre. You will work out what is best for you. Love you.

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    1. Well clearly I haven’t been in an erotica writing mood lately, but that will return at some point, I think. Until then I will dabble the way you know I do, and will try to remain as truthful and authentic as I can. Thank you for your comment. โค It’s nice to see you back!


  14. Iโ€™m sorry to hear about your brother. Iโ€™ll pray for him and all of you affected by his illness. As far as non-fiction goes, why not? If you are compelled in that direction, give it a shot.

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    1. Thank you River, that means a lot to me. We’re all focusing on staying as positive as we can for my brother. And I am compelled, I think, to try this non-fiction route. I may have some ideas… Thank you for reading me and commenting. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  15. Time to re-tackle that memoir I’ve heard about?? I think I started following you around the time you put it away in frustration.

    Creative non-fiction is a “thing”… everyday life stories told in an interesting way… I think you could absolutely do it.

    Romance and/or erotica is swamped from what I’ve heard. It’s a big seller, but there are a lot of writers.๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ


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    1. That’s what Michael said. The romance/erotica sector is swamped and saturated, but also a big money maker… Meanwhile, he’s right about my non-fiction talent. I draw a lot of attention to my non-fiction rambles right here…

      I’m still frustrated with the memoir. Meh. But thank you for encouraging me.

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