Pulling the rope in both directions

I don’t know how to navigate my thoughts. I don’t know how to write, how to think anymore. My brain is a jumble of mixed up emotions, thoughts, questions without answers.

Welcome to the inner workings of my brain.

I keep asking:

Should l?

Shouldn’t I?

Frankly, every single decision I’m making these days is a game of pull the rope.

Do you ever get this way?

Might be just me. I know I’m a little odd and peculiar… πŸ˜›

Anyway. I have a plan. I will write some lists and tackle things one step at a time. That’s the only way I can move forward.

***

Last weekend, my daughter and I went to a craft show, the One of a Kind Christmas Show. It was the first one in two years, and although there were 400 vendors there, it was significantly smaller than during pre-pandemic times. Usually they have 800 vendors at this event.

The food aisle was still there but they were not permitted to give out samples. Tasting samples was a huge perk to get customers to purchase eatibles, but it didn’t deter my teen girl from purchasing fudge and specialty nuts. πŸ˜ƒ

It was such a fun time! There were a lot of rules to follow, masks were mandatory as well as double vaccinations, but all in all it was a relaxing time. We treated ourselves to a burrito bowl for lunch, for which grandma spotted us a $20.

This special one-on-one outing made me reflect on a few other kid-related events I’ve experienced since my move out of the family home. I’ve had two separate, very special days with my son in recent weeks, both of which included driving lessons that went very well.

One time in late November, before the first snow fell, I picked him up and he drove himself to the burbs to help his grandmother clean out the gutters and put up the Christmas lights.

I’m so proud of that boy. ✨❀️✨

These fleeting but blissful moments in time help me get through the rough periods of parenting teenagers.

I tell myself – justify to myself – how important it is to anecdote these moments of pure happiness, harmony and peace. Writing about how my connections impact me is central to my spirit and emotional wellbeing. Few people understand this…

Do you?

Thank you for reading my post today. See you in the comments.

13 thoughts on “Pulling the rope in both directions

  1. I definitely know the highs and lows of parenting teens! It is nice when they do something surprisingly heart-warming. I have to remind myself to cherish those moments since they’ll be grown soon enough-my eldest will be 18 next summer 😡

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  2. You’d be surprised how often we ask Alexa to “flip a coin” when faced with difficult decisions. She’s even responsible for us hanging out at a bar for another round of drinks last Saturday instead of going to the downtown tree lighting ceremony.

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