This quote jumped out at me today.
A goal without a plan is just a wish. (‘Tout objectif sans plan n’est qu’un souhait.)Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
My friend has been hammering this message into my head for years now, and although I listen to her
often sometimes, I don’t always take the necessary steps to follow through. Why I do (don’t do) this is complicated, but I allude it to the fact that I live deep within my comfort zone, enjoying the relative safety it provides.
I am not one to rock the boat.
Or am I? Maybe I am now…
I struggle with this whole message, not just in my writing career but also in my personal life. As a Libra, I am deeply attached to equilibrium. I want life to be a balance of risk and security, doubt and certainty, fear and confidence, all nicely organized and equal on both sides.
Yet I feel unbalanced. One side of the scale is always tipped just beyond equilibrium. (I know, I know, it’s like this for everyone…)
There is a reluctance to step out into the unknown that is deeply embedded in me.
I want to rock the boat. I want to rock MY boat. I want to shake things up because I’m tired of same old.
Truth be told, this pandemic lockdown has given me extra time to reflect. I was able to pursue my dream of writing, and have done so with abundant energy and stamina. You may not see it all, since much of it remains unpublished, but that’s just me being me; I need my projects to look and feel perfect before I feel comfortable releasing things out into the world.
I do see enormous potential out there for me, but for some reason I have continued to mostly stick with the familiar, the easy, the comfortable.
I don’t want to do this anymore.
If you’ve read here a while you know that I’ve dabbled in this topic before. My mantra, If Not Now, When? continues to rattle around in my head, as it should.
I’ve already done this with my first book launch, but it’s not enough. I’m not where I want to be; but I am at the very beginning of what promises to be a long, arduous but ultimately satisfactory journey.
The COVID fiasco has been a huge obstacle for most of us, and the moronic decision-making by government types have in many cases impeded, or at least slowed down the forward propulsion required for personal development and professional success.
But this virus has not stopped everyone in their tracks. I admit I tripped and stumbled a few times this past year, I even fell a few times, but something internal kept me pushing forward.
I’m still writing, even if it’s just blog posts (lately – the stories/novels/sequels are currently in regeneration mode). It’s a start, right? The words are inside of me, they just need to come out, even if they don’t’ appeal to everyone.
I dabble in topics that have challenge me and pushed my comfort zones, which as a result had some readers run screaming in the opposite direction far way from me. That’s okay. But if you read here you know that I am a multi-faced personality, and I will continue to push my own boundaries. Because I tell myself repeatedly IF NOT NOW, WHEN?
There is an awakening confidence bubbling away inside my psyche and spirit. Question is, will I continue on this journey, or will I let external forces hold me back? Will I stay nice and safe inside my comfort zone, or will I push forward and set a plan in motion just like Antoine de Saint-Exupéry cited above?
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.