Sometimes I get sucked into an argument I don’t want to have.
Like today. I came home from running around all morning and I saw a child still in pjs plugged into a movie in the middle of the day and the dishes dumped on top of the open dishwasher.
It triggered me.
Here’s the thing. It triggers the child when I express my triggers. And, the child is struggling, a lot, with a brain that is still not fully formed, while in the throes of teen hormones, and during a global pandemic with no end in sight.
I am the adult. I am the parent.
I need to learn to let it go. An untidy house is not the end of the world. A mess in the kitchen will have to either be cleaned up by me, or left. It is not the end of the world and not worth an argument with a struggling child.
The triggers can be managed by me, the adult, better than by a struggling child.
Note: the child’s school has a covid outbreak and although this child’s classroom was unaffected, some of the students requested to stay home. The public health board is reporting covid variants of concern which are currently running rampant and the entire thing is not over. Maybe it’ll never be over ever again. BLAH.
Thanks for coming to me TED talk. Next time I cry about any of this to you, feel free to redirect me back to this post.
I finished binge-watching Bridgerton last night while consuming lemon meringue pie. The show gets quite sexy, doesn’t it… at one point, he’s on the steps with his face between her legs. Lol
But I admired the story line. I admired the dialogue, the character development, and as much as the societal standards make me cringe, it was presented very well.
Plus it’s eye-candy. The clothes, the homes, the hairstyles… ❤
I may tune in for the next season, if there is a next season. But I may wait until it’s less new…I am not of the sort who jumps on trends that the general public is so intent of following. Or, maybe I will. Depends on my state of mind at the time when/if it happens.
I have started to listen to background noise (not music playlists) while sitting at this computer. The little household noises behind/beside me are distracting and the various colour noises I listen to are helping to tune them out. Mostly.
Someone suggested I listen to brown noise, but sometimes I listen to other noises too.
Currently I’m listening to Rainy Day Coffee Shop Ambiance with a very gentle piano tune playing behind some rain falling.
Problem is the rain noises are making me need to pee. 🙄
Perhaps I will go search up some of those library noises, like fire crackling or a feather pen dipped in ink scratching on a pad of paper.
Speaking of coffee shops, the one in my neighbourhood is closed on Mondays. I was driving by it and felt very wistful that I couldn’t go in.
I have some tentative plans to meet a blogger for a walk sometime this week but we’re keeping an eye on the weather – if it’s going to be too cold and too wet, she said we’ll just reschedule.
I miss having lunch and coffee dates with friends. I miss a lot of things…instead, I sit here and type words.
Speaking of words, I revamped my homepage again. I included a picture I took at my mom’s last summer, with the sunlight shining in through the birch trees. I did not manipulate that photo at all, I did not use the filters in the phone, I simply added it to my header. What do you think?
I also added a books tab. I am anxious to get started with the last steps of self-publishing. Yesterday I consulted my final checklist: I now have the categories and tags selected, but realized they are asking for a short and a long blurb. So back I go to book blurb development…
I will be using the Smashwords platform, and the genre will be in the romance/erotica sector under a pseudonym, but I am also continuing to work on other WIPs (work in progress) which I will release under my own name. Stay tuned, I’ll be sure to update you on my homepage.
And that’s another Monday in spring in Toronto during a global pandemic. Yippie do.