I waver back and forth between a house in the country (mainly his wish, and my daughter’s) and a small minimalist (aka empty and void of all nonessential clutter) place in/near the city with access to this, that and the other*.
What is the answer?
The house with property appealed to me once. It was during a time when young, energetic children would have benefited most (and by default, so would I have). They would still benefit now, especially my daughter, but it’s a different dynamic, living with teens. Not sure a major disruption is conductive to anybody’s mental health right now.
Staying in this house certainly isn’t, either. I have had a like-sometimes/hate-most-of-the-time relationship with this place since day 1. (Hindsight is a beautiful thing.)
Walking around our house right now increases my anxiety levels to high alert, especially since the Stay At Home protocols and this endlessness that is the Covid Pandemic has begun; there is so much to sort through and organize, so much to repair and pretty up if we were to sell.
It may happen. But do I want such a drastic change? And more importantly, will this help my current state of restlessness and disquietude?
We took a drive yesterday to a town just north of west Toronto and discovered a little gem. There is one house for sale up there…we drove past it. Twice.
Nearby, there is a park with a trail, bordering a wildlife reserve. There is also a nice golf course, and an equestrian place. The downtown core has a small town feel to it, and yet the big box stores no one seems to be able to live without these days is just a 20 min drive to Bolton (south) or Orangeville (west).
This is what the trail looked like when we walked along it.
The change in the family was phenomenal. Him, in particular, and the kids also. I was more guarded…but I did enjoy the scenery.
I wonder, would a move to a place where there is more space, and tranquility, allow me more freedom and peace?
I just don’t know what the answer is.
*Not to be confused with the Seinfeld episode where Jerry and Elaine strive for a FWB situation that includes this, that and the other. 😎